today.. i can't find my worth...

things are blurry lately... i guess i need to change my perspective.. I feel bad for the last three days.. the damn feeling of nothingness is all over me..

can’t find the right way of thinking.. it’s like im near to my end..

i thought im cool.. im blessed.. im lucky..
...apparently im not

someone makes me feel great.. makes me think that life is wonderful..
teaches me to care and love once more..
but where i am now? i don’t know..
…maybe somewhere in the middle of oblivion

attaday!!

i was so stupid today... freaking stupid... ;(

my angel's bday..

it's bong's birthday today.. i completely forgot, thanks karlo for reminding me.. sorry!!

bong is my guardian angel.. he's been watching over me for 20 long years..
....keeping me away from harm
....my shadow when in solitude
....providing me the courage and inspiration to move on

....proved that im one of those blessed people who are worth dying for....


he's up there in heaven... watching.. caring.. loving..

i love you tol! happy birthday!

.......uh!

the blink of your eyes
makes the world stop...

that’s why I always wanted to look in your eyes and freeze the moment while i’m at your side

one for lyric...

Under the moonlight
the shadows are playing quietly
the roads have been abandoned
and the eyes have been blinded
by something unseen yet life-giving

I can’t help myself not to think…
….of you

I want to play in the rain with you
and hear our laughter...
I miss the way we talk
and feel the sincerity in you
I don’t dream to spend a day
in a very luxurious way
as long as you are there,
everything else is just enough…

Maybe all that I want
would be set aside
because what I really wanted
is for you to be who you are
…no pretensions
…no lies
…just you

I’m longing to touch your hand
and always be by your side
You bring me a different kind of sensation
…an emotion, never felt before

If you only knew
how I appreciate you
as my friend and more than that…
You are the one of those whom
I’ll cling on when the world
is tilted upside down

If it’s ok, hold my hand forever,
with you I’m ready to start
…a new beginning
…a new adventure of love
without the fear of hurting
myself and my heart again

I’m praying for the time that
the universe will grant my wishes
as I strive to discover you
…with room for growth
…and indescribable emotions
that kept and will keep me
alive…
reborn…
and happy…

Hoping that our world
will always be filled with angels
and butterflies

With the thought of having you in my

life makes me
learn more…
live more…
give more…
grow more…
and love more

So stay happy and smile…
for you may not know
how you have been
inspiring…
moving…
and touching my life

got inked.. again..

i thought it's a "never again" thing.. only because i thought that i will never be into the same situation once more.. but here i go again...

created another mess.. an ugly permanent one.. it's not hard to understand though.. we all know that physical pain is more bearable than emotional torture..

the only thing i can do now is to pray that this damn stupidity won't happen again.. "never again"..

Life - a rubik's cube...

Firstly, you have to look at things in the right context. Every movable piece has one position where it belongs, e.g. each middle edge has two coloured faces, and so the yellow/red edge piece has to be adjacent to the yellow and red centre pieces. If it is between the yellow and blue centre pieces, the yellow side might look fine, but the blue side will never be complete until that piece is moved.

That leads onto the second point - chances are that you will have to move that piece into a "worse" position on the cube before you can get it into the right position. So, it feels like you're going from a situation where you have 1 side out of 6 done to a situation where none of the sides are complete. But if you don't, you'll never solve it.
A significant issue here is that it's not just a case of keeping a stiff upper lip, and waiting until it's over - you have to actively make things worse. The other issue is that there's no guarantee of success - you could wind up with a cube that's scrambled even worse than it was when you started.

Taking this as an analogy for life, I think it's all too easy to get stuck in a rut, where you're not happy with the way things are, but you're not quite uncomfortable enough to risk making them worse. This could apply to various aspects of life, e.g. career or hobbies. In my experience, the hardest part is "working without a net", since these changes tend to involve going solo (at least at first).

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(not mine - found this somewhere)